15/5/2010

+M.A.D. Hari Belia @ Putrajaya

+Research002 Documentation

13/5/2010,

Stumbled upon the infinite potential and origins of water through Masaru Emoto and Stephan A. Swhartz by reading and listening. Found out that molecular bonds of h2o can be easily altered through various methods to promote certain "effect" after consumption. Details in bookmarks. Started an experiment, full details noted in mind.

14/5/2010,

1st day of experiment,

"i feel lighter and more at ease, also more energetic, however, there were no anomalies as of yet except experiencing pain in the left (exp)arm, might be strained during practice"

note: pay attention to subtleties and surrounding, diagnose self throughout the day

15/5/2010,

2nd day of experiment,

"There were unintended distractions today due to lack of sleep ad the weather so data collected might need adjustments, however, noticeable decreases in mood fluctuations, in fact, i feel great. Pain in left (exp) arm still present. Also, i was unaffected by the virus from peers, experimental method might promote immunity. Possibly affect peers through physical contact of altered medium"

note: Observations continues

16/5/2010,

3rd day of experiment,

"Minimum contact with another living being. Stable to no emotions. Strain in arm still exist but going away rapidly, considered irrelevant from now on. Stable emotions might be one effect of experimental method most probably by balancing bodily chemicals."

note: Observations continues

17/5/2010,

4th day of experiment,

"Rashes appeared on hip areas, might be caused by friction from clothing against skin(jeans). Considerably increased tolerance against anger and frustrations. Failure to perform in class, due to disturbed sleeping cycle."

note: Observations continues for 2 more days

18/5/2010,

5th day of experiment,

"Nothing significant in particular, rashes gone and can be ruled out. Though accidental removal of experimental method during shower did cause a flux, this may show that the method have immediate effect."

note: Observations extended.

19/5/2010,

6th day of experiment,

"Also, nothing significant to be noted, no stress surfaced but nervousness caused by the performance."

*EXPERIMENT IS NOW AT A NEW PHASE*

Will not be logged here now onwards due to privacy concerns

12/5/2010

I Can't

+ I can't JUST be friends with you. I'll be lying to myself and to you if i said so. I can't pretend i dont know you, i DO know you, it's a fact, can't change that. If i said i'm okay and lets be friends, it'd be a flat out LIE, im not saying i'd rather not hang out but every time we do, i'd want more so cant you see how inauthentic it would be. It wouldn't work for me, the friendship will never work. I can't JUST be friends with you, i like you too much.. take your time, do your thing, i'll be right here in this spot.

All because of you, I haven't slept in so long,

When i do i dream, of drowning in the ocean,

Longing for a shore where i can lay my head down,

I'll follow your voice, all you have to do is shout it out!

6/5/2010

+ Heres an interesting metaphor. Some humans are easily affected by emotions or energies around them much identical to sponges, which soaks up water around it very easily. Sponges will not stop absorbing until it fills itself up and waits to be squeezed to release the water. In the human case, emotions are passively absorbed from surroundings no matter positive or negative ones until he or she is stressed out and a great big tight hug would logically squeeze away the stress. Sponges cant live without water too, it needs to be soaked once in awhile, because if you leave a sponge out to dry, it will harden and fall apart, now, need i explain more? =0

I must admit i am the very type of a spongy person and it gets really annoying. One bad thing about sponges is that they take in and never let out OR LET GO without force (of course forcing is rarely a good thing) When you are one of my kind, you have to learn to let go.. IMAGINE you are a dove (or any other bird of preference, chicken perhaps? haha) Birds as we all know are light, winged animals that do not fly in bad weather. Imagine yourself looking at your wings and realize all the heavy "packages/burden" you are carrying. You try to flap your wings but you cant gain some air. You try again but to no avail, your out of breath. You LET GO of your packages and try it again. This time, your body lifts with 2 flaps and you flew.

Now, the bottomline is that you will not soar the skies if you have heavy burdens anchoring you down and in most cases, these burdens are created by not learning to LET GO of things.. Hope i helped in some way... Love, Alvin Lee.

3/5/2010

+The Library: Got Talent or Not?

30/4/2010

+As much as i hate it, thats how it is gonna be...

22/4/2010

18/4/2010

+ Film and Arts appreciation, last paper tomorrow morning and have been going through the notes since 9 in the morning, took some time off to read on other stuffs, check on some people and it got me thinking about some issues.. This week had been.. hmm.. very dramatic?despite the finals.. too dramatic actually and too emotional for quite a few people including yours truly. I must say, i have never gone through or witness such dramas in my entire life until i landed here, and i have been to a lot of places. Almost all of us have our own issues, which we tell only certain people and i freaking hate it when people put on that mask and acts as if everything is fine when deep inside, we are but rusting metal waiting for time to consume us. I know, some might say it is better to spend your life smiling than being sad all the time.. but come on, a fake smile?? if thats what makes you happy, go on with it, but i highly doubt so, if it doesnt, may i suggest you stand up and speak up to rid these pests for good?? sounds like a better alternative to me.. I have never attached myself to a group of people this much before, due to the fact that i have always been shifting places since kindergarten and me not being the guy who never shuts up. When i started here, i thought to myself that maybe i should start letting people into my life rather than going through it alone.. then i met this group of people which i call The Peeps and told myself "why not give it a try?" and i definitely did. Everything was well and awesome in the beginning, we almost go everywhere together and it felt right and homely.. i thought i finally found where i belonged. Not long after, small issues started popping out amongst us, it was tolerable at first so nobody made a fuss about them, didnt think it would need some sorting out to do.. but time inflated the bubble and it cant hold anymore, then came intervention, which i believed to have only addressed the issues and never really changed anything.. And for a while, I lost all hope on The Peeps, i told myself they were walking timebombs and they are not diffuseable. I was in a dilemma whether or not to move on. Amidst all these, there was one person i hold dear to a lot, the one person whom i connected most with, knew what was going on. She was quite much like me and she told me that she was not going to give up on The Peeps, reason? because a group you felt belonged to is too precious to be let go off. True I thought. I was surprised. I asked how?.. it was Faith. I doubted it. But when i see her actually trying to patch things up solo mode, I was inspired, motivated, and I admired her a lot despite all the teasings.. for the first time in my life, i took faith under my wings. I took matters into my own hands. Helped everyone out with whatever i can in hopes of carving smiles on everyones faces.. However, despite these efforts, I unintentionally gave everyone a mask. Most problems did not go away, and new ones start coming and I was only made aware when things got really serious. I felt like a stranger at this point, even so, i still cling on to faith to this day, hoping that the storm passes and let there be clear blue skies once again. I missed the times we had together, I missed all those stupid things we say to each other, I missed everyone, especially you..

13/4/2010

D I F F E R E N C E S B E T W E E N L O V E A N D L I K E

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster
But in front of the person you like , you get happy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring
But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush
But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile.

In front of the person you love, you can' t say everything on your mind
But in front of the person you like, you can.

In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy
But in front of the person you like, you can show your ownself.

Then person you love comes into your mind every 2 minutes.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like.

When the one you love is crying, you cry with them
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

The feeling of love starts from the eye
And the feeling of like starts from the ear.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like
All you need to do is cover your ears,
But if you try to close your eyes
Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after.

Author Unknown

Exam Phase

9/4/2010

+ T'was a memorable day... =)

Of Pictures

+ Have been very picture-ry lately if you noticed. 1st reason was i got a hold of that camera that nobody is using, the Lumix, i just knew that i have 2 of those camera but have been under-used so heck, its mine noww =) 2nd reason was, i was browsing my pictures awhile ago and i noticed i have very few pictures of the times i had, i mean, 19 years of life and only a handful of pictures?? so i told myself to make taking pictures a casual thing, not to the point until im labeled a camwhore~ so expect more pictures from now on coz words can only tell so much... BUT i will still be writing of course! just less frequently ;)

Of a Cherry Tree

+Good morning little cherry tree

May I dance beneath your arms?

Please be kind to me

I cannot withstand your charms

Hello little cherry tree

Please don't fade away

Your beauty shines so brightly

Your pink is as sweet as May

Good afternoon little cherry tree

I love how your petals gently sway

So may I gaze upon thee,

Until the world is grey?

Why do you blush little cherry tree?

Your presence sweetens the endless days

And your scarlet robe fits you perfectly.

Now take my hand and we'll dance away into eternity.

Why do you taunt me so little cherry tree?

Why do you live so short and bright?

Your beauty is so captivating

I want you for all time

Good-night my little cherry tree

Let the snow be your bed

Don't worry I will wait for you

Until those winter blankets shed

25/3/2010

+Photo by no idea which cheeky chicken, Credits to the other Cheeky chicken Gloria for doing that lol and Casey Chong for editing the photo...=)

20/3/2010

Smilee~

+2nd trip to Broga Hills with the Roses =) was disappointed tho the clouds hid the sun :/

Dear You...

19/3/2010

+ Its 4.02 A.M. and im wide awake in the middle of this dark and cold night.. the bottle of beer i had over dinner could only help to clear my mind for so long.. talked to Casey and he went off 10 minutes ago, now i cant go back to bed since the alcohol wore off.. I have had nothing to post recently, apparently i was happy enough or not so emotional enough to spit out a post despite all the thoughts floating around, until now, i couldnt help it anymore but to transfer them here. Most of the problems were solved during our very own 1st intervention, of course i do not wish for another one, some raised voice and some shed tears, but im damn glad most of us poured our hearts out.. for good. Oh and did i mention PaperRoses, our band, had jz more or less composed our very 1st song? a great big toast to that! had no chance to celebrate but will definitely do once the final version gets recorded :) hmm what else.. oh and the UCSI dance club just had a mob performance last Wed, although my part was just very short, i enjoyed it, like i always do when i dance.. AND me and Aaron, we are planning to join UCSI's Got Talent as a team and we have some radical ideas for it, definitely something to look forward to.. also, we, as in the dance club will be organizing a dance competition in July, we will be participating as well, another thing to look forward to.. will also be visiting Broga Hills this Sat, FINALLY, and thats pretty much about it.. will try to update on our band's photoshoot later today..last but not least, to those who will be enrolling in higher education soon, Welcome to college life, good luck and study hard! dont be like me, i was just lucky enough to be given a second chance!.. Yours truly, Alvin Lee.

P.s. Supernatural so totally own Heroes =3

3/3/2010

+Its a pretty big day tomorrow, and will be my 1st time on UCSI's stage =) I'll be performing as part of the UCSI Dance Club for UNIFEST2010. Had practices earlier today and the day before, tiring but nonetheless fun, even tho i gave myself bruises by trying monkey jumps (a stunt where you jump and dive forward and into a roll) and finally got it, which reminds me of the time i got my 1st kickup (a stunt where you lie flat with back on the ground and kick up into standing position) years ago. This week is definitely hectic, just did my mid term paper for probs and stats and was easier than i thought, and another midterm paper coming this Fri. Oh well, this is life, gonna enjoy myself on stage tomorrow night 1st! will post a vid if i manage to find someone to rec it*

21/2/2010

+Taken from Broga Hills, Semenyih, 3rd peak.

By Alvin Lee

With K800i

*P.S. : Thank you Gloria, you made our day ;)